ITS ME,MALIK!!

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

-> <-

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you're far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
When every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure.

kewl lyrics.. wow what a busy week i have.. work, soccer.. home.. doinks.. work was fun..closing all malay..
not being racist la but then it was really fun lah all malay.. chill aje.. kit our supervisor kept mum.. he dare not say anything
wahaha.. doinks.. i keep saying doinks laa.. habit now..

anyways, still aint giving up hope.. cause i think there might still be room for lil hope.. lets HOPE things will be better in 2007..

klah, to that girl, i hope there's a chance in ur heart.. may ALLAH bless ur family.. take care of nenek yah.. she needs loadsa care..

bye all..

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1:20:00 am
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Saturday, December 23, 2006

-> bad <-

although westridge won 10-5, i played a particularly bad game.. eventhough i saved few shots, my play still aint good enough.. 10-5 to an 8 man team.. what the heck..!!

and my stupid mood came again.. i feel like i suddenly cannot control my anger.. sorry ah wei if i screwed ur night.. really couldn't help but vent my anger verbally..

i think i need an anger management course.. hahakz.. i get angry easily.. i explode more than i usually do.. what's happening to me..? lets just wonder since i have no answers to it..

wednesday explode.. today explode.. i wonder when will i explode again.. hope working wont be affected.. coming monday tuesday saturday and sunday working..
shit sunday...
hari raya haji i need to work.. WTH!!

screw it.. i shall celebrate by going prayers then go work.. wahaha..

klah, no more thoughts.. i'm just trying to think what makes me angry actually.. stress kott..
bye bye...

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10:58:00 pm
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Thursday, December 21, 2006

-> what a world <-

hey hey hey..

what a world we're living in..
crown presented on a silver tray,
the queen wants the crown presented on a polished gold tray..
servant gets upset,
but still he doesnt give up..
he finds hard for gold trays..
he picked up one..
and thought it was gold...
he was fooled..
its a silver tray slightly painted gold..
he still doesnt want to give up..
he doesnt want to upset the queen..
that's what he pledge himself..
never to give up trying..
and not to upset the queen..
may god help him in his dangerous unforgiving journey to find gold tray..

guys, nw its time for you to try twist and turn and try to see what's up with me...
cheers ya'll...

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11:40:00 pm
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-> hmm.. <-

hmm lets put in some thoughts..

feelings come and go..
people come and go too..
but this feeling just dun wanna leave me..
tried once, tried twice..
failed both attempts..
dear Allah please answer my prayers..
i promise to be a better person both religiously and character wise..

i've screwed up people..
made people angry..
made myself angry..
that is just not me..
since when i'm a problem player?
since when i snap at people..?
since when i'm explosive..?

past few days been a rough..
someone please cheer me up..?
i cant live an explosive life..
that just aint me..
not only am i explosive,
my appetite seems lower now..
only ate one chicken wing juz nw..

i'm not being me..
i wish i am the person by her side..
ALWAYS..
but hey, to think of it,
i now realise how valuable i am..
that's a big fat 0..

nobody cares..
nobody knows..
the feelings i feel for her..
the joyous moments i had with her..
the memorable days..
washed down into the drain..
or am i just assuming stuff..?
i freakingly hope i am assuming..
cause if not,
its really hard to climb out of this hole in my heart..

she's someone special..
but am i special too..?
lets wonder and keep wondering..
cause i know the answer is too painful to reveal..
but heck, the answer needs some light to be shone on..

some long thoughts.. ignore if u get bored looking...

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1:20:00 am
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Wednesday, December 20, 2006

-> lyric <-

Airmata ini kan mengalir sendiri
Biar kulewati jalan yang kita susuri
Sukarnya untukku melupakan wajahmu
Baikmu terasa walau kau tiada
Selebar dinia takkan pernah ada
Serupa denganmu
Engkau yang kucinta mungkinkah tercipta
Bukannya untukku

some lyrics i find interesting... look up and listen to exists - terasa baiknya.. that's the title of the song.. cheers all..

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1:49:00 pm
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006

-> what a setback <-

damn strange yeah.. what a setback.. stand back malik, u're in for a shocking jam in ur heart...

if any of u dun know, try figure urself out... dun need to ask me.. you went get an answer.. cause i'm gonna keep to myself only... nobody gets the answer cause i don't think nobody cares laa.. nemind la.. let this un-erasable feelings try its best to fade away whereas they can never fade..

feeling down... someone ease the pain!! please..

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9:09:00 pm
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Monday, December 18, 2006

-> steamboat <-

why i call it steamboat..? cause i ate steamboat at home just now!! ok so what did i basically eat..? some mutton, cheese hotdog and crabstick + sotong ball, and loadsa vege.. all in the soup.. yummy..

that's all i have to update now..!! nothing special happened as i slept until 3 pm just nw.. what an achievement..!! wee... so lets write down some stupid thoughts.. hmm..

ur birthday this year might be on wednesday but nxt year, its on a thursday.. so every single year u celebrate ur b'day on the nxt day of the week.. so think about it.. and plan ur b'day way ahead..!! wahahah...

ok bye for now.. on the phone with her.. wee.. tata..

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1:45:00 am
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Saturday, December 16, 2006

-> esplanade <-

suppose to meet at 8.40.. wasted my freaking 50 mins at lakeside MRT station staring at every single thing including the marble piece i sat on at the lakeside concourse.. its such a nice piece of material.. marble.. i wonder how its made actually...

anyways, at about 10+ we reached cathay cineleisure to have my meal.. they said they dun wanna join but then lastly joined me eat KFC... no choice lah hafta eat that fast food.. AINT HEALTHY!

so after the meal, went outside cathay to accompany the smokerz smoke..then went off to ngee ann city to kinda lepakz.. babat got a glance of this girl with her friend.. funny la this girl.. apuk asked if she is attached to the guy friend.. then the 15 YEAR OLD girl actually said this..." you think i don't have any taste if i were to stead with him? puleeasee..." was amazed at the remark la cause to me, out of 10 she'll receive only like 5-6.. and the remark.. hahakz.. funny la this girl.. nemind...everyone also have their tastes..

ok so after that, got screened by this group of policemen+1 policewomen.. not really screened la but they got our details down.. address ic number and all... friendly people.. cool yo..!! keje lepak aje.. haha...

ok so after that, babat went pasrah cause he break up with his girl.. that sux though.. first time i saw him cry.. cheer up babat.. kalau da jodoh tak ke mana2... ye ye je say that but myself, sioww.. anyways, after "screening" and all, went off to esplanade walking non stop.. stopped at starbucks at the specialist centre or whatever its called... got free ice choc from mr syam(Westridge)..!! and happy b'day to him..!!! wee...he's a cool person laa... everything also know..

after the short break, continued walk to esplanade... when reach esplanade already, everyone went tired.. i just continued smsing dearest sweetie... called her awhile but then cut short uh.. she working the nxt day and she's tired so understanding siket lerr.. hee.. was wishing she was beside me relaxing and counting stars..

anyways, all were bored.. after like 30 mins of staring no where, dunno who suggested playing this primary school game, pepsi cola... cool seh! long time never whack2 people leg.. nw my foot gt a bit blisters already.. haha.. what to do, they wear shoe i barefoot know!! nemind.. had a blasting day.. but then, the activities for saturday awaits.. 9.50 hafta be at BBDC, reach there late by 5 mins.. then was a bit sleepy but still can hang on uh.. listen to the crappy instructor... waiting for time to book RTL.. grr...

after BBDC, went home with rafi my primary school mate.. he's cool lah.. but lost all his left ligaments.. pity him cant play soccer.. nemind my friend... shall see u soon..!!

went home, cant really sleep...ate a bit of rice.. then went off to farrer park at about 3.30.. this one still havent sleep know...played soccer there against elias park.. lost 4-1.. hey its a better score right rather than 6-1.. ishh.. they said i played well.. i dun believe i play well.. what u think? hmm... i still need to have room for improvements.. monday playing at JALAN BESAR!! a great artificial stadium.. hope i'll excel there.. who knows i might get a chance to play for club.. haha..

wow such a long entry.. hahakz.. just releasing some tension.. hahakz.. i'm part of her life but am i someone really special in hers..? cause she is in mine...

alright lets not think of it.. hee... thoughts of the day.. hmmm... none lah.. my mind really blank now.. plain boring life.. when am i gonna spice it up..? anyone selling spice..?hmmm

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9:59:00 pm
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Friday, December 15, 2006

-> updated again!! hee.. <-

never wanna make u cry
never wanna make those tears, come to your eyes

You think that i really don't love you
That could never be true
Cuz no matter what i'll always be real to you
So tell me what i layed on my line
Without you i'm ready to die
Cuz it's so hard for a man who expresses true love

cool lyrics by a song never wanna make you cry by kevin lyttle..
anyone want the song, ask from me.. wee
anyways, had a blasting time just now after common tests..
went to the new cathay thingy near PS with her..
watched the holiday.. romanticly comical movie.. cool movie though..
kinda touching.. had a great laugh and time with her there..
the $30 she reserved for me was finally spent..!! on slippers..
kinda fast choice though.. dun really shop and go for designs.. just simple is nice for me..
a big THX for her.. and congratulations on getting ur hands on ur new HP...*claps**claps*..

so a question in my mind, am i holding on to the key..? i really darn hope i'm holding the key to her heart.. cause to find a gem like this, its a one in a billion chance.. so there's about 5 billion humans.. so about urm, easy said, really rare gem to find lah.. hope things will turn out just fine or perhaps excellent.. weee...
alrighty, thoughts... hmmm... always hold on to someone you really love.. but then, if love is not returned, pick urself up and try to move on.. u might or might not find someone better..i cant find someone better.. tried and proven cant... another man's trash might be another man's treasure.. she sure is my treasure...

hmm finally, gd night all..!!

*enjoyed my time with her..
*hope she enjoyed her time too..
*thoughts of her kept running through my mind...
*dun wanna lose yah ever...
*this i promise you...

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12:54:00 am
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Monday, December 11, 2006

-> <-

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

cool lyric.. just nice ler.. has got nothing to do with anything.. just find it a beauty..

anyways, the day juz nw was alil bit fun + boring.. but hey, i flew to save this ball aight just nw.. wahaha.. such a thrilling feeling when i "flew".. hahakz.. gotta try that again and again... afro and his buddy faiz gonna join westridge.. if his commitment is there, i'm sure westridge gonna be a hell of a team.. with speed and coolness, westridge will slowly rock ur socks... no sox aight fiddy.. nyahaha..

anyways, finger still in pain, knee problem lets hope isnt anything serious.. cant overstretch myself..
did some core muscle exercises.. i need to gain some body man... nw only 59 kg.. dropped 2 kilos..!! damn i'm skinny and i hafta be skinnier.. that's crazy.. although sharon says my body looks ok from what she sees, but still i aint satisfy yo..!! bahh.. more food..been eating alot and shitting alot.. grr...

alright, thoughts of the day, if you are committed, anything impossible is possible.. cooperation is much needed in almost everything.. don't say something is impossible until u've done that thing.. anything is possible in this world..unless of course u're gonna do smth stupid laaa.. wa lau weii!! haha..

okayy now.. bye bye..!!

-..have i found the keyy..??
-..is the door gonna open for me..?
-..in serious pain..
-needs improvement in studies, soccer and home affairs!!

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1:23:00 am
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Sunday, December 10, 2006

-> dunno.. <-

hmm lets update..

JB trip was tiring cause the night b4, i slept at 5.30 am thinking alot...
and fixing this webcam problem thing.. dun need to know the problem, its solved i suppose..

JB trip didnt have any good outcome.. the ubi thingy couldnt find.. last resort, me and dad got it from the side of expressway.. got loadsa duri thing stuck on my slipper.. had a cut on my foot.. damn the plant.. but its worthwhile ar.. for mum's sake.. everything oso can..! wee...

made mum happy.. now i gotta make myself happy.. patience is cool... separuh dari iman beb..! haha.. cupid song is very the meaningful uh.. has it got any connection to the situation i'm in..? probably... GOD knows..

lets make it short..

thoughts of the day, dun study hard, study smart.. hee.. cheers guys.. gd luck..

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12:14:00 am
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Friday, December 08, 2006

-> confused.. <-

hey there peeps.. current state of mind, confused..

talking to wiwik my fav cuz on webcam now..wee..!! got webcam.. happy but at the same time sad + confused.. why i'm feeling confused?? i also dunno bout myself...

is it cause i don't show much attention to you..? hmm.. maybe.. nak cakap bill melambung, mmg.. cannot overuse my own HP.. cause bill was like $140 seh last mth... cause i msg the soccer guys alot.. termasuk ler msg orang2 tertentu skalik.. so i'm sorry if i dun give enough attention..

but then, lying was my past... that's why i chose this dumb skin... cause i was a liar.. i'm no more a liar cause i know, lying takes me nowhere.. anyways, sometimes i wonder why.. why i lied last time.. why was i such a painful guy who hurts someone's feelings trying to forget someone unforgetable.. genuine feelings.. those words i'm trying to translate through actions..

anyways, lost to national U-17.. such shame.. such painful moments.. almost let loose my left knee while trying to tackle this striker guy.. had my knuckle twisted in a way while trying to catch ball... oh my knee.. please be good and let me kick till half way line.. i know u can do it cause its done once..!! please..!! sunday training.. hope nothing serious happens.. but then if smth serious happens, i will really know who cares and who doesnt.. so serious injury or not..?hmmm.. someone answer my qn.. wee...

kler, thoughts of the day.. dun drink too much coke light.. can cause cancer..
whenever u have fever, go doc.. dun let it burn ur left part of ur brain or u'll turn retarded...

bye for now..wee...

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11:55:00 pm
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Thursday, December 07, 2006

-> great result comes great pain <-

4-0.. colossal victory against central park FC.. they are so called the sharks.. they sucks la.. ehh rhyming laa..! haha.. anyways, its westridge's first clean sheet.. and i'm proud to hold that title.. woo hoo..! there's still room for improvements..!

anyways, like the title says, great result comes great pain.. my knee.. it hurts..! its tough for me to pray but i'll try my best to pray properly.. otha than this stupid left knee problem, i have this stupid ankle injury i undeservingly receieved.. actually stepped on my own ankle during monday training.. dumbass me.. wahaha. well i hope nothing serious happens to my knee.. i gotta wear this dumb knee guard when i go out or play soccer..

tomorrow match against national u-17.. hope we'll win.. a superb win against SIM will bring our morales up.. we shall control the game tmr.. another clean sheet for me please..?? been keeping 3 squeeky clean sheets..hee..

quotes quotes quotes..
if there's a problem we solve it, if we don't resolve it, it just usually jus' evolves into one big brawl.. from a 50cent song..
be liked for who you are and not what u're not..!! remember that guys... be urself.. dun eksyen become another person when u're not.. being urself is COOL...

thoughts of the day..
lets wish upon a star, that the key is finally found by me and i shall use it to open the heart that i've always wished and hoped for ever since that day... it would be supremely hard to find a replacement like you.. tried it once, failed.. might as well not move off.. learn from mistakes.. don't brag about it.. study the mistake done..

bye for now.. wanna have some nice sleep..sleepy la bloggie..!!

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12:27:00 am
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Monday, December 04, 2006

-> yesterday, today and the day after <-

hey hey hey..

yesterday went to queensway after work.. actually planned to just eat but then, i need to get gloves..and slippers actually.. but nah, was wearing shoe.. lazy to pull out my feet to transfer on slipper to try on.. lazy me.. lazy to do every single thing..nyahaha.. anyways, work was boring as usual.. slipped into the cashier area and SMSed hEr.. lazy to work laa.. no customer at all.. and me and elfi expected a crowd for all the lil trainees..nyahaha.. sure cock up.. nevermind laa..!! finish work already..

AS for TODAY..
training as usual.. kinda a lil tiring one.. but its all fun.. its a must to improve myself..! i'm getting better day by day i hope.. its compulsory..!! thursday match.. hope i'm gonna do fine... i'm sure the opponent is tough.. lets pray for another clean sheet.. not shit aight..!!

tomorrow..
TEST!! DIE!! duno what demorgan's theorom.. stupid la that morgan..give theory for what?! now i'm confused over that bloody matter.. as for other stuff, its darn easy.. only have to do all in nor or nand gate, that's dumb.. hard.. and complicating..!!

anyways, hidup takley sombong..! kalau sombong jangan hidup la siol..! mati bagus.. kawan biar ramai, kekasih biar satu.. and the one and only i hoped for, i'll continue my wait.. i want to solve the problem as soon as possible and make our lives much happier and merrier and joyful and whatever nice words.. i hope i'm holding the key...

thoughts for tonight..wee.. bye all..!!

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10:08:00 pm
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Saturday, December 02, 2006

-> ...NPFC 7-0 SIM...Westridge 2-2 Dunno what club... <-

an amazing result by NPFC.. not a bad performance by Westridge.. somehow i feel like i wanna quit Westridge but then, they have amazing players with amazingly no fitness.. and no attitude at all.. when half time and leading, all happy2... if losing, all with angry and stupid faces.. no team spirit bebeh..!! nevermind... NPFC is gonna rule IVP.. u'll see.. nyahaha

7-0.. amazing result... thanx to fiddy for coming down and watch the match.. halfway through actually.. nevermind.. u still came.. thx for fulfilling the hope.. nyahaha.. maybe the reason we won 7-0 is because u came..wahaha.. ape saje la reasoning..

anyways, before going home from clementi stadium for westridge game, went off to JP to buy bloody fool scap paper.. then go delifrance to buy eclair..yummy..!! thx fiddy for letting me try the wasted eclair... nw addicted to it.. wa laoo weii!! came to ur shop then u ran away.. then that stupid karen(dunno if its correct anot) make that eclair stick to the bloody plastic thing.. stupid her..

lets solve problems together... for 2 heads are better than one.. as action speaks louder than words, i hope my so un-sweet words will give me a chance into ur heart... i hope i'm holding THE key...

till then, byebye..!!

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11:29:00 pm
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