ITS ME,MALIK!!

Sunday, September 30, 2007

-> the heart opens... <-

Hai cinta
Dengarkanlah.. Aku ingin bicara..
Tentang aku dan kamu..
Tentang cintaku padamu

Aku memang laki laki..yang pernah mencintai
seribu Wanita dan misterinya..
tapi sekarang begitu berbeda
Denganmu aku merasakan cinta yang lain

-chorus-
Bersamamu.. Kurasakan Cinta..
Bersamamu.. Kumerasa Rindu..
Bersamamu.. Ku Bisa Jatuh Hati..
Bersamamu.. Kurasakan Sesuatu
Yang Tak Pernah Kurasakan... Sebelumnya...

Ini hanya teriakan perasaanku..
Tentang perasaanku Kepada dirimu
Yang semakin hari, Semakin menjadi jadi

Hatiku sudah memilih
Kamu menjadi separuh nafasku dan
Separuh jiwaku.. kamu menjadi bahagian hidupku..

repeat chorus

nice song huh..? guess who sang..=)

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1:09:00 pm
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Monday, September 24, 2007

-> <-

i just felt disappointed..
when the moment i thought i can try to move on,
it just failed..
why..?
coz she's tired..
what a reason..
insyallah ada hikmah di sebalik ini semua..

anyways, i've been having a strain in my butt..
wahahah..x-ray done..
doc thought it was a tailbone fracture..
the moment i heard that, my heart fell..
that could mean the end of playing soccer..
dad spoke to me to stop playing soccer..
but i'm just too stubborn..
went training just now..
sure my butt was painful..
but i hung on..=)
pain still pain but tahan ler..
wana chase for the No.1 spot..
although i've been wearing no.1 jersey..haha..

okey hopefully i'm gona be okay sooner later..
hopefully there wont be anymore injuries..

-broken inside..
-life hafta move on but it seems like i cant..
-i thought i saw a perfect gem but the other miner got his hands on it first..

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8:41:00 pm
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Friday, September 14, 2007

-> =) <-

Jika itu memang terbaik, untuk dirimu
Walau berat untukku, berpisah denganmu
Hapus sudah air matamu, aku mengerti
Ini bukan mauku, ini bukan inginku

whoaa what a chorus part..=)
cheers..

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1:34:00 am
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Wednesday, September 12, 2007

-> the end.. <-

i lost the other post so let this be the short and important few points..

-praying that she'll be happy with him..
-will also pray for her wellness and success in A lvls..
-if this guy breaks her heart, i'll break his leg..
-off to some spacing out..
-hope i'm still her listening ear..
-a better stronger more stern me nxt time..

so if i bark at you, u better listen and shut up..
i might have something good to hear..
i wont bark much la..
i'm soft..
i'd rather listen than speak..
so if i'm too quiet, doesnt mean i'm emo-ing..

goodbye for now..
till we meet again some other time..

-somethings are never noticed until the brink of extinction..
-wana hold on but i must let go..

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3:39:00 am
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Wednesday, September 05, 2007

-> some things.. <-

some things are better not said..
i dun wana say those phrases..
but i guess pressure is applied and said is what my heart..
so what the shit i did..?
find out urself..

worked my ass out again juz nw..
am freaking tired,
i'm not able to slp lately..
eyes are sleepy but my brain and heart is rapid..
other than working my ass out,
been playing soccer..
did some gym session ytd..
wana go summore tmr after work..
building a bigger toner me..
my motivational fuel: confusion, anger and elfi..
confusion of myself..
angry at myself..
and elfi pushes me sometimes..
and i have a pain in my ass..
literally...!

alrighty then, stop sign is already up in my heart..
road users know what it means..
stop sign that is..
been always gentleman to girls..
and been a soft person i guess..?
what's the use anyways..?
i wonder sometimes..

alright, i need to slp although i know i cant..=(
gd night and gdbye to all my feelings whatsoever..

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11:25:00 pm
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-> was it me all along..? <-

i just wana know..
just wana find out..
but still i wont be able to know..
from the way its said,
i think all along its me..
hw dumb..

end of story..

so played soccer juz nw,
dominated jurong east st soccer..
no soccer tmr..
working my ass off tmr till 5..
money here i need..!!
wana buy bike la..!
no other things to spend on..
no reason for me to spend..

end of entry..
baii..

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1:15:00 am
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Tuesday, September 04, 2007

-> psst2.. <-

so what's gona happen..?
when it rains and u have nowhere to go..?
walk ard IMM with a friend laa..!
should thank missy ain for temaning me..
although she's tired from the attachment thingy,
sempat plak die teman si malik mkn..

anyhoos, still in the dark..duno what i should do..
someone shed light for me..
well i know that i can be there for someone..
i'm always there for her when she needs me..
i'm still her friend..
well she said i aint her close friend so i'm just a friend..=)
i hope in the future i can still be there for her when she needs most..
everytime i speak/sms, i'd put away my jealousy..
i'd put her feelings as priority first rather than mine..
tried liking other girls..
but i can never click with them..
almost accidently fell in love with this girl..
but i dun like the part where she smokes..
and she wants every attention that i can give..
irritates me..
c'mon i have my life..
anyhoos, i know my life is gona be better..
i just hafta try to forget this special someone bit by bit..
lagu gerhana ska cinta - terpesona is nice..hooked to it..
another song..eng song..very nice..
4got the title..when i know i tell..

its getting long...
time for me to workout tmr...!
wana build a better me..
who knows i can attract more girls..wahaha..
wont happen i know..
the reasons:- i aint attractive..
- who would want a skinny person..?
- i hide my feelings..
- stress..? mabe not ar..wahaha..

ok enough..time to slp..nitez..!

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12:35:00 am
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